Imagine going through life never being told you're beautiful because you're handicapped, or looking beautiful on the outside but suffering from a chronic debilitating condition on the inside. In today’s society, chronic illness is common. However, the issues facing these people are rarely discussed. While illness is hard on everyone, the perception of women and beauty while being ill is convoluted. If you illness is invisible, you do not receive help for your issues or your illness may be trivialized and if it is obvious people don’t know how to respond.
Lyme Warrior is creating a calendar to feature women who are battling serious chronic illnesses and how their amazing personality and drive keep them moving forward when the cards are stacked against them. We are featuring illnesses from Stroke to Lyme Disease to Huntington's. Women who may look "normal" and beautiful but are fighting serious, some even life threatening diseases. At Lyme warrior, we are ecstatic to present these beautiful women with tremendous spirit and drive, who continue to fight chronic disabling conditions on a daily basis with dignity and grace. These women are Chronic Beauty. Today on the blog I'm sharing a piece by Lauren Lovejoy of Lyme Warrior.
As I crack my eyes open first thing in the morning, I groan. Its another day, a day I don’t feel good, and worse, a day I need to do something. Regardless of the activity there’s always a part of me that is just too sick and tired to do what I need to do. However, today people are waiting on me. I drag my carcass out of bed, make breakfast with my friend, Lydia, who came down to help me. I whine through breakfast and pile myself into her car, arms stacked with supplements and detoxers to get me through the day.
We arrive at the studio and I try to pull myself together. We start walking supplies up to the second floor and the planning begins. In comes the photographer, hair stylist, and makeup artists and it takes off. Today is the first day of the Chronic Beauty photo shoot.
Chronic Beauty is an idea that came to me one of the millionth times someone commented how good I was looking when I felt like I was dying. I considered the opposite and imagined what I would look like if I looked as sick as I felt and I sure didn’t like that either. When you have the flu, it is empathetic to tell someone they don’t look good. You are acknowledging their problems. When your illness is chronic, you don’t want to look bad, but you don’t want to look good either. So, I sought 12 women with different chronic conditions to tell their story of what being Chronically Beautiful meant to them.
As I was still trying to pull myself together, the day started rolling. Our first model showed up and the shoot began. Hair brushes and make-up brushes were flying while photography equipment was set up. We rolled through the prep and shoot until we stopped to interview our first model and ask her about living with Cerebral Palsy. “I’ve lived with Cerebral Palsy all my life,” she said. When we asked what her symptoms were like, she said she has none. “I don’t have any symptoms but I have to use this chair”. She said referring to her wheelchair. “People treat me well. They are usually willing to help me wherever I go. I work at the Y (YMCA) and I get to help the kids all day. It’s great and people are very supportive.” I exchanged a glance with Lydia, with the same look of surprise at how opposite this was from our battles with illness. I found her statement of having no symptoms and frequent help completely intriguing. If given the time, I could have talked to her all day but the other models were arriving and the shoot must go on.
The day became a constant flurry of chatter and laughing, all the warm good vibes I had hoped to accomplish bringing all these women together. What was different about the room was this unspoken haze of empathy. No one complained of symptoms or even discussed it for the most part, just a quiet respect for each other and the knowledge that we were all fighting conditions that had changed our lives. The day was chipper and fun. As always, the amusing wardrobe issues surfaced and having people’s noses tickled by makeup brushes kept us laughing. This was only broken by the times we sat down to interview the women and talk to them honestly about their lives. Many models gave stories I was more familiar with. Conditions that were not obvious and were disbelieved by their doctors, their friends, and sometimes their families. When you hear someone else with a chronic condition say “It’s hard”, it holds an entirely different weight than those words would have meant before I experienced chronic illness myself. I frequently wanted to hug the women speaking because I knew how heavy and hard their experiences have been that have lead them to where they are now. But realized they didn’t need my comfort to be strong and tell their story, all these women are warriors. As the interviews rolled on, myself and Lydia occasionally looked down to pull the tears out of the edges of our eyes. It wasn’t how unfair the diseases and symptoms were, but the stories of how people treat you and how you have to pull strength from deep inside yourself to keep moving forward when it’s far easier to give up.
I could spend hours telling you about each of these amazing women but you will just have to wait for the calendar and footage. Leaving that day, I felt so humbled being around not only beautiful but some of the strongest women I’ve ever met. I thought, if this is only a few amazing women, I know there are a million other stories out there to be told. I encourage all women to start telling their stories, to be honest that there is almost nothing about illness that is easy. There are more than a few moments where you want to give up and the lows are things that people should never have to experience. It’s each person’s ability to keep overcoming those times of extreme illness and hurt and to continue to give and contribute to the world that I find to be the most amazing part. I hope people will buy these calendars so that they can look at it every day of the year and be inspired to face the issues they are dealing with and find it in themselves to overcome them. This inner strength is Chronic Beauty.
Written by Lauren Lovejoy - From a full time grad student, legal assistant, and crossfit enthusiast to couch bound in a few months from Lyme. Lauren holds a Masters in Analytics and has years of experience in promotion and the legal field. She is working to empower those with Lyme Disease and help others to join together to make change while still fighting her personal battle with Lyme Disease. Click here to shop Lime Warrior.